I know it’s hard to remember, the people we used to be..
..all of our bridges burned down…
…now I’m paralyzed, still stuck in the time, when, we called it love but even the sun sets in paradise….
Hey, how are you? How’s life? I miss you. These are simple things that I wish I could tell you. To let you know that I still think of you. To let you know that I still care. It’s been a few months, but I haven’t gone a day without thinking of you. From the times that we have spent together we’ve created so many memories, that you are constantly on my mind. Do you remember? The good times we had/ The laughter? The smiles? The tears? I hope you do..Because they are times I’ll never forget. You were
one of the, biggest impact in my life. You made me love me. Accept myself. You made me happy. I wouldn’t be who I am today if it weren’t for you. You’re my best friend.. I miss talking to you. Seeing your face. The jokes. Your presence. But I know, deep down inside, you want nothing to do with me. And so I keep my distance..I no longer exist you anymore. You’ve pushed it aside.. our memories, our laughter, our dreams..you erased me.
Did i erase you? No. I still have everything that you ever gave me. From the smallest star, to the plushest animal. What about my gifts? What’s become of them? Do they still have a meaning to you? I hope so.
All I ever wanted, from the time you disappeared was to have my questions answered. Even just one. That’s all I need to be satisfied. Even if it’s not the answer I seek. But actions speak louder than words, and it shows “no.” I am a nobody.
Though we cannot talk, or communicate, I still pray for you. Think of you. Want what is best for you. Some would say to me “you’re still in love”. “you’re pathetic”, “move on”, “give up”. No matter what they say I know how I feel, and that’s all I care about. I may no longer love you, but I will always have a love for you..until the day I die, but even then that love is eternal.
I’m sorry I messed up. I’m sorry I’m still around. I’m sorry that I disappointed you. I’m sorry. But sorry doesn’t cut it, and actions speak louder than words, but when you are confined to no communication, words and actions are as futile and empty.
“Storms they will come, but I know that the sun will shine again…”